..natngnear..

The Fact

natngnear — Mon, 30 May 2011 04:34:10 +0000

거짓말이야.. 거짓말이야.. 이렇게 끝낼 수는 없어..

다시 돌아와.. 제발 돌아와.. 네가 날 떠나가는 게믿기지가 않아..

어떤 말을 너에게 해봐도.. 다 소용이 없겠지만..

이건 아니야.. 이건 아니야.. 이사실을 믿지 못하겠어..

이건 모두 거짓말이야.. 사실이 아니야.. 더는 믿지 못해..

돌아와 달라고 몇 번을 말해 네게.. 이건 거짓말이야..

이젠 너는 내 옆에 없잖아 .. 그게 사실이야 믿고 싶지 않아..

돌아와 달라고 수없이 얘기해 봐도.. 지금이 거짓말려야 해..

거짓말이야.. 거짓말이야.. 거짓말이야.. 거짓말이야..

사실이아냐.. 사실이아냐.. 사실이아냐.. 사실이아냐..

It’s a FACT..

머리는아는데

맘이 인정을 못하겠데

삼켜질듯한 불안감에

나도모르게 나오는 보호본능 또는 집착인듯해

머리 위로 툭 하고 떨어져버린 이 상황

도저히 감당할 수 가 없어 난

비워 낼수 없다면 새로 채워볼게

너와 나의 이야기를 다시 써내려갈게

“The Fact” — 비스트

Should I keep this up?

natngnear — Mon, 30 May 2011 03:24:06 +0000

What’s this? haha.. I just noticed that I make updates around the same time of the year, aka being active with my WP blog once a year xD

Should I keep this trend? ㅋ 그럼담post는.. 내년에! LOL

work…

natngnear — Sun, 20 Jun 2010 11:20:56 +0000

With workload like this.. I’m not even sure this is what I want anymore..

I see how siwon and donghae posted about their Bible learning group. I miss doing that so much. Used to do it every wednesday, learning about His teachings, meet with fellow christians. When did I stop doing that? When did I become too busy?

I need it so badly… it’s what keeps me going..

이렇게 바쁜… 무슨차이가… One of the reasons I moved back from korea is this.. That life will be so busy and hard.. But what’s the difference now? I hardly have time to enjoy.. I’m almost cut off with my physical friends.. Not to mention the virtual ones online.. What is this?

Dear God.. Give me wisdom.. Lead my way..

Another happy day

natngnear — Mon, 17 May 2010 19:18:45 +0000

Have you played tug of war before? Everyone must have. Many korean friends told me this is the strategy used when you’re trying to hit on or get someone to fall for you. This makes it sound really manipulative. Don’t you think, though, that everybody in any country does the same thing?

First you gotta act like you don’t care (familiar? Any blackjacks? Haa)
Then you flirt a little..
Another day you seem busy..
Then you’re back at flirting..

Tug of war..

How happy am I to know that this really works today. And it feels much better than trying to run after it all the time!

Happy

natngnear — Sun, 16 May 2010 17:35:04 +0000

Felt awefully lonely last night but it got much better today. I know there are things I shouldn’t have. Things I shouldn’t do. But this makes me happy. As long as I don’t hurt anyone it will be fine right? Awww this is so tempting.

So cute.. You’re really cute!! Talking to you today felt so good. You make me less lonely. Tomorrow I’m gonna miss you more and more!!